Today has been one of those days when Ben had definitely pushed me to my limits. He had tested and exploited every little bit of my patience. It was a hard day and I wasn’t sure if I was going to make it before I ended up with a nervous breakdown. I was angry, annoyed, short-tempered, and on the verge of tears. I did not feel the Spirit. I questioned how other mothers do it… how they deal with their children when they are completely out of control…how they manage to stay sane… As I was contemplating this, my out-of-control little boy came and asked for some food. I put some food on his plate, handed him a fork, and continued on with cleaning up the mess he had made earlier in the kitchen. A couple seconds later I saw Ben put down his plate and fork, fold his little arms, look at me with his sweet and innocent face and say “bless the food”. I had forgotten to bless the food and he was reminding me. I couldn’t hold back the tears of both shame and gratitude: shame for letting myself get carried away in negative feelings that drew away the Spirit, and gratitude for the sweet little boy who reminds me of what’s really important in this life.So today, I am grateful for little children.
2 comments:
That is so sweet, I love those moments too. It goes to show just how close these little ones are to the spirit, and what we are trying to teach them! I am thankful for little ones too! Its hard at time to be a mom, but the blessing that come from it out weigh the negative. Thanks for sharing your thoughts, they help us all! And thanks Ben for being such a good example!
Wow- I know it might be the last thing you feel in a moment like that, but honestly, it sounds like you are such a great mom. I know that you are grateful for Ben, but he will be so grateful that he has a mom who is aware and mindful of having the spirit in the home. Love ya chica!
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